As tears streamed down my face I kept running down the street. I didn’t know where I was going but I knew I had to get far away from the school. As I kept running I realized that it probably wasn’t the safest thing to be running by myself at night. I hailed a cab and told the cab driver my address. When we pulled up at the house I realized I had left my purse at the school.
“I’m sorry, but I left my purse where I was coming from. If
you hold on I can run inside and get the money.”
“Don’t worry about it. You look like you’ve had a pretty
rough night.” I hadn’t really thought about it but I must have looked like a
mess. I had been crying and the spot where Waverly had slapped me still hurt so
I probably had a red spot on my cheek.
“Thanks.” I got out of the cab and entered our gate. I
didn’t want to go into the house since I knew Mom and Dad were probably still
up, instead I chose to sit on one of the swings. I sat there thinking back to what had
happened that night and felt so confused. It seemed like I was on the verge of
admitting that I had some feelings for Carson when all of a sudden, I chickened
out. What was wrong with me? It didn’t seem like rocket science. I either had
feelings for him, or I didn’t.
I was startled by the sound of someone’s voice. “Can I come
in?” Carson was standing on the other side of the gate. I walked over towards
the gate trying not to look at him. I was partially embarrassed by how I had
acted back at the school. I opened the gate and he stepped through.
He held out my purse. “You forgot this back at the school.”
“The prom’s almost over and I think everyone’s heading back
here. Is it okay if I stay?” I nodded and he pulled his phone out to call his
parents. I walked over to the front door and put my purse and crown down on one
of the tables. I popped my head in to call to my parents.
“Mom, Dad, we’re all coming back here after prom. We’ll
probably hang out outside for a little bit though.”
“Okay! We’ll be going to bed soon so if you all get hungry
just help yourselves to anything in the fridge!” Mom called down from upstairs.
I walked back over to Carson and he was just hanging up with
his parents. We stood there in silence for several minutes. Suddenly, he gently
tilted my chin up and looked at where Waverly had slapped me. With his other
hand, he gently brushed my cheek and I winced. He quickly pulled back his hand
and sighed. “She got you pretty good.”
“It was worth it; it meant I got under her skin.” I slightly
smiled at the satisfaction it gave me.
We broke apart quickly at the sound of the limo pulling up.
Everyone pilled out and walked in the gate. “Hey! Why did you all leave early?”
Charlie blurted out.
“We heard Waverly hit you, are you okay Bridge?” Kate asked.
“I’m fine.” I tried to reassure them but when I looked up at
them they all gasped. “I guess my face doesn’t look fine?” I kidded with them.
“I swear I’m going to beat the crap out of her the next time
I see her.” Charlie angrily declared.
“Oh stop it Charlie! Let it go. How many more days of school
do we have? Just don’t worry about it anymore. And Bridge, maybe you should
take the same advice.” Kate suggested.
I looked down at the ground and thought about what had
happened between Waverly and me, and then between Carson and me. I looked up at
Carson and he was looking down at me, when our eyes met we quickly looked
away. As I looked away from Carson I
caught a glimpse of Julia looking at us and she spoke up. “Hey, why don’t we go
down to the basement and play some pool?”
“That sounds like a great idea. Last one there has to set up
the balls!”
Trent started running toward the house. Carson and I continued to stand there watching everyone else go into the house. I knew one thing, I didn’t want anyone spying on us from the house so I started walking towards the barn.
Trent started running toward the house. Carson and I continued to stand there watching everyone else go into the house. I knew one thing, I didn’t want anyone spying on us from the house so I started walking towards the barn.
As we entered the barn I walked over to Rainbow’s stall and
started to pet her. As she nuzzled my hand, Carson walked up behind me.
“Bridge, we need to talk; about what’s going on between the two of us.”
I turned around and looked at him. I knew he was right but I
was scared that he was the one insisting since in the past I had been the one
to start these conversations. “I thought I was the one who was supposed to
start these conversations.” I joked with him. But instead of smiling, he
continued to have a serious look on his face.
“Bridge. . .”
“Why do we keep having this conversation Carson? Why can’t
this be simple like Kate and Charlie’s relationship? Why are we so complicated?
It’s like we go round and round in circles and we always do the same thing.” We
started hearing laughter and I wondered if the others were coming back outside.
“Is there somewhere else we can talk where we won’t get
interrupted?”
There was only one place that I could think of and it was
the apartment above the stables. I grabbed his hand and led him up the stairs.
I opened the door and locked it after he entered. “I didn’t know this was up
here.”
“We don’t use this very much. Sometimes when family stays
over Mom and Dad will kick Charlie and Jeff out of their room and have them
sleep here. But that hasn’t happened very often. It’s mostly used for if one of
the horses is about to give birth or is sick. Dad will sleep here if that
happens.” I couldn’t stop babbling. I was so scared about the conversation I
knew we were about to have that I thought if I kept talking, he wouldn’t be
able to continue.
“I just don’t know any more Carson! I don’t
know what to think, how to feel, how you feel, what I should do; I have no idea
what is happening! And for me, that’s scary. I hate not being in control of how
I feel or a situation and that’s exactly what’s happening!” I had started to
sob; it was like a dam had been opened. “Like when we were dancing together, I
went from one moment thinking about our friendship to then realizing that my
feelings for you have changed. I don’t know in what way but they’re not the
same as they were at the beginning of this year! Then moments later, I’d go back to thinking about what a great
friend you are. I’m just so confused.”
I was weeping by that point. He rushed over to me and before I could object, he kissed me.
I was weeping by that point. He rushed over to me and before I could object, he kissed me.
******
I didn’t know how else to get her to stop. I had never seen
her this flustered. Sure Bridge had a tendency to be dramatic sometimes, but
this wasn’t about being dramatic. I could tell that she was really in agony
over what was happening. As I pulled away from kissing her I held her face and
looked into her eyes. I fully expected her to get angry at me for kissing her
but she instead just stood there looking back at me. Something had definitely
changed with her.
I dropped my hands and turned away, walking to the other
side of the room. I needed time to process what was happening.
“Why are you walking away Carson?”
I bit down on my lip. “Because I’m just a confused as you
are Bridge. I don’t know what to think right now.”
“We’re going to have to do something that neither of us seem
to be very good at, talking about how we feel about each other honestly.”
“I’m willing to if you are.” I nodded and we stood there for
several minutes in silence. Neither of us wanted to go first, I suppose scared
of what the other might say. I was about to say something when she spoke.
“I’m. . .confused. That’s the best way I can explain it. Are
my feelings for you the same as they were this summer? No. I can honestly say
that. But how much they’ve changed or in what specific way, I can’t answer
that, at least not without guessing. You know me Carson, I haven’t really dated
anyone before so I don’t know if I would know what those feelings would feel
like. Maybe I think too much about feelings. I’ve always assumed that if I had
feelings for someone I would immediately know it. With you, it hasn’t been that
way. It’s been more of a creeping in feeling than in instantaneous feeling.”
“But you think you might have feelings for me? I’m confused
by what you’re telling me.”
“I’m scared Carson. I’m afraid that once we start going down
a different road that things are forever going to change and our friendship
will forever be lost.”
“Can I tell you how I feel?” She nodded and looked down at
the floor. “What happened between Waverly and me took a toll on me. I know it’s
been four weeks since she and I broke up but to say what she did hasn’t had a
lasting effect on me would be a flat out lie. I just don’t think, at this
moment, that I could get into a relationship with anyone. I need some time to
put some distance between what happened and starting a new relationship.” She
nodded and looked a little disappointed. “Having said that; Bridge, you know
I’ve had feelings for you for a while now and that hasn’t changed. You’re scared, I’ve just come out of a bad
relationship; maybe we can agree to leave the door open to the possibility of
our relationship growing. Take things slowly and continue to talk about how we
are feeling. I know that’s not a very concrete answer but maybe that’s best for
both of us right now.” I prayed that she would be okay with my suggestion. The
last thing I wanted to do was to push Bridge away, but I really believed we both
needed time to sort out our feelings.
She looked up at me and gave me a little smile. “I can live
with that for now.”
I let out a big sigh and smiled. “Do you think we should go
join everyone else?”
“We probably should. They’re probably wondering where we are
and what’s going on.” She walked over to the door and unlocked it. We walked
back down the stairs and heard what sounded like everyone outside. We walked
out of the barn and saw everyone sitting in front of the outside TV.
I've been creeping on this story for awhile, and I absolutely love it! Keep up the amazing writing and good work!
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Thanks for reading! Appreciate the kind words and that you took the time to reply! : )
DeleteBridgette kind of frustrates me, LOL. Yeah, change is scary, but sometimes change leads to better things. Their friendship will change if they start dating, but Bridgette needs to see it as a new better friendship, like she can be even closer to Carson, instead of looking it as a scary thing. I understand Carson though, not wanting to start a new relationship so soon after Waverly. I'm glad that Carson at least got Bridgette to be open to the idea of a relationship later on.
ReplyDeleteLol. Bridge frustrates most people so you are definitely not alone. Carson is one of the few people she doesn't frustrate (Most of he time). She's the type of person who needs to be hit between the eyes for her to really get it. Her lack of experience dating is holding her back at this point. She doesn't understand that their friendship could change for the better.
DeleteAt his point, if Carson hadn't had reservations, they probably would start dating. She was a little disappointed that he wanted to take some time. There just needed to be some time between him and Waverly. I do feel bad for Carson though. He's liked Bridge for three years and he's so close to being with her. Frustration is almost over. : )
You definitely have the whole teen angst down to a T. Your writing style is amazing. I feel like Bridget is so realistic as a character. I want to slap her and hug her at the same time. LOL
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Amandralynn! That's so sweet of you to say! Oh I constantly want to hug and them slap Bridge. I think everyone in her family feels that way too. But not Carson. He loves Bridge for her craziness. : )
DeleteI love Carson. The End.
ReplyDeleteBest compromise ever. I'm so glad we got to go into his head. I like the way he thinks...
I love Carson too. =D
DeleteHe has a lot going on in that handsome head of his and most of it is pretty smart stuff.
Right now they've kind of flip-flopped; where she was more open to dating but he wasn't ready, so there's just a little more wait. It's coming though. : )
Bridgette and Carson are so frustrating. Although I understand where Carson is coming from but he should just admit he likes her and let things happen. I think they'll be good for each other once they figure things out.
ReplyDeleteThey are frustrating, aren't they. :D Thankfully they're kind of moving in the right direction now.
DeleteThey do seem to compliment each other, which usually is good for a couple. :D
Thanks so much for reading and commenting, DandyLion!